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8/14/09 Patricia A. Hawkenson’s Reflections

A Glass of Wine with Dinner

Cheese hardens with holes throughout
hidden until the knife goes through.

So don’t be surprised by what you find
when prodding me for answers.

I have empty places you cannot fill
that time has sealed up tight.

So don’t be surprised by who I am
when the outside’s gone to mold.

Pour us each a glass of wine
and taste a palette cleanser.

Slowly savor my new found flavor,
becoming what you’ve hungered for.

Warning on the Label

Don’t befriend me, an avid poet,
who listens with attention
to all your worldly woes,
prodding you with jellybeans,
and creamy coffee chocolate,
all the while writing down
new juicy poem prompts.

My subtle cookie tossing
of your secret private words
spreads far beyond my kitchen
out into the blog-o-sphere
where hungry readers can indulge,
calories be damned.

I am a scandalous master
of woes and words and worlds,
’cause I can mix it with the best
and serve it hot to you.

One smart cookie.

8/06/09 Patricia A. Hawkenson’s Reflections

No Excuse

She sat in my classroom for one hundred and eighty days.
Front left side, third from the center aisle.
16 days absent, if truth be told.
Not much of a story here.
Flu, broken bones, all the usual ailments of a twelve year old.
If my students weren’t so easily distracted
from the topic of the lesson on that day,
I would have noticed her empty desk.

She entered the room quiet, so quiet, you may have not seen her
as she slipped by with her arms wrapped
around her books and she apologized
when she slid into her chair.
Crouched down with my face closer, I asked, “What was that?”
But there wasn’t another sound coming out
from under her shield of auburn bangs,
her exaggerated part falling against nature.

She moved her hair aside so one dark pupil could peek through.
I could see she had been crying
and in our glance we agreed
to leave the story there.
Students were asked to write about a happy memory.
The bell rang and her paper handed in
told the story of her older brother
ripping a clump of her hair.

In the jostling of books as she left, I could see it was non-fiction.
Her scalp showed a shining new bald spot
the size of a fifty-cent piece
but the story written there
went on to tell of how she felt safe in the walls of this room,
and since I was her teacher
could I write her an excuse
to stay away from home?

She sat in my classroom for one hundred and sixty-four days.

Gone to Seed

In 1960, Pete and Joe
wondered as they sang
when people would ever learn
where all the flowers had gone.

Gardens used to keep children
running under its sprinkler spray
and kicking the can and water balloons
filled cut grass with fun.

Laughter road the streets on bikes
with cards click-clicking spokes
and sticks banged out a tune
on the leaning picket fence.

Yet drive the street anytime today
and no one is outside
for children left the garden,
unattended, gone to weeds.

A long time since 1960,
you and I still wonder
where flowers in our garden go
when children live inside.

5/30/09 Patricia A. Hawkenson’s Reflections

Objects In Mirror
Are Closer Than They Appear

In the back seat
of our family car,
we are rolling up the windows
and complaining to dad
about the odor
coming from the cornfield
we are passing.

The farmer,
riding on his dusty John Deer,
is taking in the deepest
of breaths
sucking it all in
until he is tasting
the scent
of money
growing deep into
his fading pockets.

He can afford to smile
and wave at us
as we pinch our noses
and drive away.

Flatlined

There is a lifelong
debilitating disease
that artists suffer
causing them to abruptly wake
from a sound sleep
as if from an electric shock
with their shifting eyes thinking
resting on nothing in the blackness
until they frantically
reach for the notepad
and pre-sharpened pencil
on the nightstand.

The ability to write
without seeing the line,
a compelling genetic defect,
is causing them to break
from the rest of night
to rise with their thoughts
before the dawn’s activity
can flood them away.

Their lovers have come
to follow in their wake
turning off curling irons
and moving pots off the stove
where interruptions
have carried them away
drowned in thought.

Burnt Sienna

When she was small
and picked up her crayons
the 64 box
held all the colors
she needed.

And my Crayola girl
colored in magenta
vibrant and lively
bubbling with the laughter
that painted her mood.

And gray was bypassed then
for sepia and raw umber
when forceful scribbling
was needed.

So there is no surprise now
when her nights
are marked in black and white
with no way to erase
the mistakes of the day.

If she had been playing
with an Etch-a-sketch,
she might have learned
to turn her troubles over
and shake them away.